I’m counting down the days to my wedding! My love and I have set our date and ordered our invitations. It’s funny how much closer I feel like we have grown since he placed this ring on my finger and asked the question. I feel like we are more open with each other. The time we are forced to spend apart grows more and more unbearable.
We have started pre-marital counseling and have had a blast so far. It is such a wonderful process this marriage thing. I love it and I am thankful my soon-to-be-husband and I are both enjoying it as it brings us closer together. The coming weeks will bring our engagement shoot! What fun that will be!
The other day I was thinking back to all the memories I share with my new fiancé. Joy and laughter came flooding back to my heart, along with the feeling of incredible love and a hunger to create many more equally wonderful memories. Then another thought came to me as well. It was the realization of how many “firsts” this sweet man has given me – and not doubt I will continue to be granted many more firsts through him.
Some of the firsts he has given me are:
1. My first prom experience
2. My first dance
3. The first time I ever held a boy’s hand (and wanted to)
4. The first time a guy ever told me he loves me
5. The first time I ever told a guy I love him too
6. My first kiss
7. My first time making French Macaroons
8. My first time trying Vegemite and Turkish delight
9. The first time anyone has ever read me stories
10. The first time I had ever realized I am not alive if I don’t have this young man’s love
So, so many firsts given to me by this one person, and so very many yet to come.
“Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.”
For my photo challenge today, I have memories as the subject. To tell you the truth, every single photograph I take has a memory stitched through it. This photograph, however, has a memory sewn in it that I hope I never forget. A walk along a river, barefoot, hand-in-hand with a very special person.
Today’s photo challenge is something sweet. I chose you photograph honey for this challenge. Honey is so naturally sweet and so pure. I actually just went and pick up this honey from a local farm at 11:30 a.m. this morning, so it is fresh! I love honey. It soothes and sweetens at the same time, making me instantly happy anytime I eat it.
As of late, I have decided to keep a hand-written journal. I guess I became inspired to write down my thoughts and going-ons after reading Dracula. Thus I have pledged to keep a journal for the whole of 2013 and see how it goes.
Why 2013, you may ask? Well, I feel like 2013 is a year of many changes. I am in my final year of high school, I will be attending a university, and will be a part of a collegiate sports team – to name a few I am aware of. So why not keep a journal? I feel like this is the year when I will take a huge step into the beginning of my life away from home, and also a step forward, full of discovery and new things.
Another reason for my keeping of a journal is so it can be passed along as my legacy. I would absolutely love to read my mother’s journal from when she was my age, and even my grandmother’s. Sadly, none of them kept one. I am a huge writer, I scribble down anything at anytime and anywhere. When I grow old, I want to be able to look back on the memories I gained, the laughter I shared, and the friends I once knew. Perhaps even the pain I had to endure, to remind me of how I became stronger. If anything were to happen to me, I would like to leave this little piece of me for my family to refer to when they think of me, like the one left by Anne Frank.
There are so many reasons why keeping a journal may be a good idea, this is simply my reason. So if you’re up for a challenge, try it out for yourself. Keep a journal as your legacy.